*~*Love Note: Blaine to Kami – Fear of Falling by S.L. Jennings*~*

Title: Fear of Falling

Author: S.L. Jennings

Genre: New Adult, Contemporary Romance

I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.

He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fibre of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.

My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.

***Inspired by true events***

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Fear of Falling was one of my favorite books of 2013 – I L.O.V.E.D. Blaine and Kami SO much. Check out my interview with them!

Oh my sweet Blaine…just wait till you see what he said to Kami

Keep reading to see the full Love Note!

Happy Valentine’s Day, my beautiful Kami,

I just want to say Thank You.

Thank you for following your heart, allowing it to lead you straight to me.

Thank you for sharing your life with me. I honestly didn’t start living until the day you walked into Dive. Even with tears in your eyes and a scowl on your face, you were the most gorgeous thing I had ever seen.

Thank you for trusting me. I know what a great gift that is from you & something that isn’t earned easily. I will never, ever devalue that, baby. Believe that.

Thank you for loving me. After all you’ve been through, the fact that you have chosen me to open your heart to is amazing. I love you, now and forever.

Thank you for giving me a child. That is the greatest gift of all, Kam. You will be a beautiful mother and I can’t wait to experience that with you. Don’t ever think differently. You have so much love and strength inside you. Our baby and I are so incredibly lucky.

Thank you. I can’t say it enough. I can’t even describe how much you mean to me.

The first time we were together, the very first time we made love, you told me to show you. So, this is me- showing you.

Today you will find charms inside mason jars that I have left for you. I know, I know… real original, right? But just humor me, babe. Ok, these charms are clues, and every time you find one, I want you to hook it onto the bracelet that is inside this jar. By the time you find me and your last clue, you should have a charm that represents every special moment we have shared together.

This is your first clue: a tiny blueberry waffle charm.

Don’t narrow those gorgeous green eyes at me. You know what a sentimental sap I am (Believe me, CJ won’t let me forget it). But each moment with you is precious; let’s celebrate them.

Ok, back to your clue. This represents the place we ate at for our first date. I remember how reluctant you were, but for some reason, you trusted me. Go there now to find your second clue.

Happy Valentine’s, baby. Come find me so I can show you how much you mean to me.

Always,

Blaine

Fear of Falling by S.L. Jennings

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

*ARC Given to Blog for Honest Review*

5 “Roadrunner” “254 stars” “semi-creeper” Kisses

OMG Wow…where do I begin with a book like Fear of Falling…It. Blew. My. MIND. Loved it. Beginning to end and everything in-between. Loved the characters, the story line, the flow – the sexual tension, the wit, the humor, the connections between the characters. I could go on and on and on cause guess what? I really can’t tell you what I didn’t like about this book. *breathe* So now…I will continue to babble about what I loved.

Kamilla Duvall…Kami Kami Kami…oh my sweet, broken, damaged Kami. So much hurt and fear, hidden so well. Almost. She’s a gorgeous, exotic beauty and she broke me down. I shed so many tears for her. I understood her pain but all I could do was hope she would survive it. She doesn’t have a family. The closest thing she has to a family are her two best friends and roommates, Angel Cassidy and Dominic (Dom) Trevino. Angel is a burst of energy and sunshine to help see Kami thru her darkest days, while Dom understands her pain better than anyone ever will. I truly enjoyed their friendship – it’s unique and special.

“You can do this,” I whispered to the reflection staring back at me. “It’s ok. You’re ok. It had to be done. You have to keep going. You can do this, Kami Duvall. You will not break. Not today.”

Blaine Daniel Jacobs is a pleasant surprise. Perfection wrapped in an unexpected package. What’s there to love about Blaine? He’s got tattoo’s. Do I need to keep going? He’s tall. He’s got chocolate brown eyes, a boyish grin and according to Kami, a great head of hair. Plus his name alone…once again, Kami his the nail on the head – ‘Blaine.
God, why couldn’t he have been named something less sexy? Like Mortimer? Or Buford? Because for a name like Blaine to be attached to someone as gorgeous as that scary-beautiful man was downright cruel.’
So effing true…great name. From the outside you would never imagine what he is truly capable of. I fell for Blaine instantly and spent every click of my kindle begging Kami to see what I already knew was there.

‘It wasn’t Blaine’s physical adornments that scared me. It wasn’t even his intense chocolate brown gaze that made me forget to breathe. It was him. All of him. My body’s response to his scared the living daylights out of me.’

So first of all, this book gave me one of the best first chapters I’ve ever read. In my life. Ever. Hands down. If I hadn’t already been dying to read this book before I read that chapter, then those pages sold me. Specifically the part involving shots. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. That is all. You will know what I mean when you read it. *shivers* It’s that memorable. And thus began my devouring of Kami and Blaine’s story.

‘For the first time in twenty-three years, I felt something. Something other than trepidation when a man touched me. Something more than the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when I had to shatter another heart because I couldn’t let anyone in. Something so much more than the emptiness that filled my chest when I thought about the normal, happy life that I would never have.
Blaine was my more.’

So when I say I devoured it, I really did. In one day mind you. I couldn’t put it down. I didn’t want to put it down. And obviously given the fact that I finished it in one day, I physically couldn’t put it down. Their story is just one that begs to be read. You feel their desire and longing to be together, but at the same time I understand Kami’s reasons for holding back. Both Kami and Blaine are just very compelling and believable characters. I was completely engrossed in them…their lives, their feelings, all of it. To me, they were very real.

“I’m not looking through you, Kami,” I said only for her ears. I didn’t need an audience; I just needed her to hear me. “I’m looking into you. I’m standing here, wondering how the hell a girl so beautiful could hold so much sadness in her gorgeous green eyes. And I’m asking myself why I want – no – why I need to know what’s made her so sad. And what I can do to take away every ounce of that sadness. I need to know what it will take for you to let me in, so I can do just that.”

The book is told from both Kami and Blaine’s POV’s…which surprised me at first. Not because it was confusing, just unexpected. But trust me, it was a pleasant surprise, because Blaine’s mind is a lovely place to be. I loved getting both their thoughts, both their perspectives on different scenes and encounters. Left no room for questioning – I like that.

“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”

What else did I like…I liked that I went highlight crazy in this book. Not joking, 20 pages of highlights. Some of them paragraphs because I couldn’t just highlight a few lines, it was all magical, it all had to be highlighted. (Stop looking at me like I’m crazy, I speak the truth!) I liked that this book gave me that feeling in the pit of my stomach. No, I loved that. It’s that feeling that I really only get when I’m reading an angsty book and it’s not giving me what I want. Because I know at the end (hopefully) I will get what I want and that feeling is worth everything. And so much more. Plus that angsty feeling…it builds up adds up for me – of course I loved Blaine and Kami together but that push and pull just makes me crave that HEA more. Speaking of the HEA…oh…my…GOD. I need to try and come up with a better word, but seriously, I L.O.V.E.D. it. So much. Worth it…and then some. Told you, it’s always worth it in the end.

‘Blaine. All I could see was Blaine. He was the muse for every song, every painting, every dream. He occupied my deepest, most intimate desires, and hindered my past pains from consuming me with his touch.
It had always been Blaine. I just wasn’t ready to see it.’

So…as much as I love Kami and Blaine, their story is complete. They will always stay in my heart, but there isn’t much else to tell IMO. But there is Dom and Angel. And oh boy! Do I want their stories??? Yes…yes I do! Very much so. Especially Dom – I think he’s worse off then Kami was and good Lord that’s sooooo not a good thing. Angel on the other hand would just be a riot. There’s pain there too, but Angel is a blast in a glass and I’m all about her. I cannot recommend Fear of Falling enough, it’s a truly beautiful story about embracing the ability to love.

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Most known for her starring role in a popular sitcom as a child, S.L. Jennings went on to earn her law degree from Harvard at the young age of 16. While studying for the bar exam and recording her debut hit album, she also won the Nobel Prize for her ground breaking invention of calorie-free wine. When she isn’t conquering the seas in her yacht or flying her Gulfstream, she likes to spin elaborate webs of lies and has even documented a few of these said falsehoods. Check out S.L. Jennings Blog.