*~*Because of Kian by Sibylla Matilde Blog Tour – Excerpt & Giveaway*~*
***** Mature Content, Abuse, Sexual Situations, Adult Situations, Strong Language *****
I know I’m twisted. Growing up in a perfectly well-adjusted home, I don’t really have an excuse. But no matter… I realize how messed up I am. And therapy can only do so much.
I pushed my boyfriend to violence, a violence he couldn’t control. Sickly, I almost liked it. So I pushed him more. Before long, the pain outweighed the pleasure and the loss I sustained shattered me. So I ran. I’m now a bit shell-shocked harboring a lot of guilt. My boyfriend is now my ex and wants revenge. He wants me to pay for turning him into the monster he’s become. And I still have a deviant yearning that I don’t understand. My own monster inside… my own demon to battle.
I can’t get close to anyone. I can’t give in and scratch that itch. I can’t wreck someone else.
And now there is Kian… my rescuer on a dark, painful night. He sees through my pretense. He tries to pull me from my frightened isolation, to keep me from becoming a victim. He forces me to face my warped desires and shows me that pain doesn’t really have to truly hurt.
He wants to show me a way to serenity. But I am afraid… Will I ruin a good man?
His hands slid along my jaw, just above my neck, and nudged my face up to his. My eyes closed to shield him from the raw emotion he would see in them. I waited for his words. A rebuff or a command. Something to start the argument that was sure to follow.
But instead of hearing the growl of his voice, I felt his lips crash down on mine. And I blossomed beneath him.
My arms frantically wrapped tightly around his waist. His kiss was demanding, fervent and rough. My aching soul relished in the painful, bruising force of his mouth on mine, the tight pull of his fingers in my hair. Taking a few steps, he pushed me roughly up against the wall, and I moaned as the rush of desire poured through me.
He knew. I needed him. I needed this.
Sibylla Matilde grew up in the mountain valleys of Southwest Montana exploring the dusty Old West gold country on the back of a horse. She attended a two-room schoolhouse beginning in 1st grade & had the same teacher until she changed schools after 7th. Beginning at about age 12, Sibylla discovered historical romance, feeding off of work of Jude Deveraux & Lisa Kleypas. She loves a book that can make the reader run the gamut of emotions, from the sweet glow of new love to gut-wrenching heartache. She is a true romantic & always has stories floating around in her head, living in a fantasyland until she writes them down to free them.
Music is her emotional trigger. Growing up with a Wagnarian-loving mother, Sibylla was raised to treasure music that digs deep into the psyche, drawing out elation, sorrow, grief, desire. The soundtrack to her life includes many genres spanning centuries. She looooooooves Thirty Seconds to Mars (rather obsessively, actually… but, really, how can you NOT be crazy about this guy!? Jared Leto. Shhh. ) & pimps them out to all her friends through Spotify. She also delights in Met Opera HD broadcasts at her local movie theater & hopes (listening Met?) to someday see Diana Damrau reprise her role as Mozart’s Queen of the Night in Die Zauberflöte.
Sibylla lives with her husband and hero who saved her from her own calamitous, young-adult self. He makes her laugh daily, even when things are tough. He’s proved to her that love really can heal a shattered soul. In 18 years, they have never had a fight, although argue regularly with their two teenage kids who have, unfortunately, inherited their father’s quick wit (unfortunate as it is a quick wit that Sibylla, herself, definitely does not possess – there is a reason she is a writer & not a stand-up comedian). They live a quiet life with their two weird little rescued Chiweenies. Wait… teenagers & little yap-dogs? OK, maybe not so quiet.
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What draws my in to read is the cover, teaser, and blurb. I want to get to know the interaction between the characters. Thanks for the chance.
I would like to read this book, because it sounds different than a lot of books out right now
Because I love Sibylla’s style from Little Conversations.
I love stories with angst, drama, and fighting.
The first time I read the blurb about this book had me wanting to read more. I want to see why she did what she did and how Kian he helped her.
It has a very intriguing premise and I want to see how it plays out
The synopsis is intriguing ~ it sounds dark and a bit different, always a good thing 🙂
I like the synopsis – it’s different then what I normally read, but sounds intriguing to me 🙂
the synopsis looks intriguing, interesting and not of the normal that is out there.
This just sounds like a great read! I can’t wait!
Love the book cover looks amazing.
I just read In the Firelight and it was AWESOME, so i must read Kian
I’m interested, because the story line is so messed up…in a very interesting way!! 😉
Such an original idea. Very intrigued
Love the cover! Thanks for the chance to win!
I have heard this one is dark, and I need a dark read every once in awhile to help counteract the syrupy sweet romances.
The cover is a nice start 🙂 The blurb really drew me in it sounds different and interesting.
It’s sounds dark and thrilling. Who roundly want to read it. 🙂
The reason I am drawn to this book is it seems like it is about fighters. People who have been knocked down and drawn into a darkness that they know is there but are looking for a light to find there way to something more.
It sounds really good. Plus, having someone there when someone else wants revenge gets my attention. I want to know what happens.
I love the cover. I wanted to read it then lol Then a friend told me the first line or two of the book and I know I HAD to read it lol
looks intense
it sounds really good. on my tbr list. thanks
The cover! 😉
The cover was the first thing that drew me in ! The blurb makes me want to read it 🙂 Thanks for the giveaway !
Very interesting author bio~ I would read this book based upon just that.
I love the cover the book sounds really good
I always love those I can fix you stories! Thanks for the giveaway!
The cover and the teaser draw me in, for sure! I love that teaser. Thanks for the giveaway!
This certainly sounds intriguing & quite dark actually.
I read the excerpt and it sounds so hot. I would let him take care of me. I am ordering this book now. I cant wait to read it. Thanks for the giveaway
It sounds so good! The blurb just has drawn me in so much! Can’t wait to read it 🙂