*~*Love Note: Carter to Kara – Resuscitate Me by Leddy Harper*~*

 Carter Hastings was only supposed to be a fling,
A summer of fun, excitement, pleasure
And, it was…
Everything.It’s hard to walk away,
To leave the one man,
Who resuscitates me.

But I did.
He didn’t reciprocate my feelings.
He didn’t love me.
Not now.
Not ever.

Dear Kara,

This last week has been miserable. Boring even. It makes no sense and has done nothing but leave me confused for days. Before you showed up in my gym and literally fell into my arms, I was happy with my life. I worked and spent my time building my business. That’s how I wanted it. It was easy. Somehow, you show up, confuse me, and before I know it, I’m spending all my free time with you, like you put a spell on me or something. Now that you’re gone, I realize my life before you was dull, and I never wanna go back to that. But I don’t really have much of a choice now, do I? Because you got on that plane. You went back home and left me here. That was the deal…I know. That was how things were supposed to go. But I was wrong.

I love you, Kara. I tried to ignore it. I tried to tell myself it wasn’t real, that you’d leave and everything would go back to normal. But I was wrong. So damn wrong. And I don’t know how to go back in time to change it. I want to go back to when we were in the car together, when I was dropping you off after spending the night. The day I told you we should cool things off. I wish I could go back to that moment and tell you how right you were. Confess everything to you, tell you how much I love you. I wish I could redo that moment more than any other. I was an idiot.

I tried to tell you this when I found you at the airport. I went there to tell you everything and beg you to stay. But you didn’t give me the chance. Maybe I’m blind and read it all wrong. Maybe you don’t feel the same. But I have to give it a shot. And I figured there’s no better way than to write it out, because it seems I turn into chicken shit around you. I get worried you’ll turn me down, and then I become defensive. And I don’t wanna be that way with you. I want to be honest. So here it goes…

I love you.

I want you to come back.

I want a forever with you.

A couple of my friends are dragging me out of the house. They need my help to clear a field. And considering I’m not doing much these days without you, I figured it would give me something to do, maybe help take my mind off you for a bit. Although, I know they’re only gonna rag on me for being pussy whipped. But you know what? I don’t care. As long as it’s yours, I’ll be as whipped as humanly possible. Anyway…I’m gonna seal this letter up and put a stamp on it, and when I come back from clearing the field, I’ll stick it in the mailbox and then wait very impatiently for your response.

I love you.

Yours Forever,

Carter